there should be more candles

How old would you be, if you didn't know how old you are?
Satchel Paige


Thirty-two years ago, I was born in the desert town of Victorville, Ca.  And what an adventure it has been ever since.  I dont know where I thought I would be at this age, but I'm happy I'm here. Last year I ate cupcakes alone and cried while watching Ryan Gosling movies, a huge contrast to today.

My husband still had to leave and miss my birthday, for the second year in a row, but one year of me being used to this schedule of his has changed how I handle it.  Its funny how something like that was almost devasting to me last year (you silly kid) and this time around I just realize how fortunate we are to have great careers doing what we love, our health and amazing life plans in the works.

As I reflect on what I have done and who I am becoming I wanted to create a list of things I hope I can accomplish this year.

32 year old Heather wants to:
- always follow my dreams even if they dont work out, I never want to be the person who doesnt take a chance.
- live the life I want, where I want.. aka getting out of this town in March!
- give more.. even if its only a little time, I want to volunteer or help when I can where I can.
- take time away from all the work I do for 'days off'
- enjoy the hobbies I have neglected over the last few years 
- make more friendships online and off.. real friendships, not networking ones.
- ...and a few extras I will make up along the way

Don't worry I plan on sprinkling in more girls nights, cocktails, concerts, road trips, pictures, crazy hair styles, new advendtures (maybe going on a plane?!).. to the list, but for the most part its simple- I just want to enjoy this damn life!

I've noticed this year was a challenge for me in that I've filtered myself in so many ways.  With the way I live my life, the things I do, who I associate with, what I write about.. even what I create.  I have felt that these things weren't caused by one particular person or situation, but rather myself thinking that I need to be a certain way.  I just want to find me a little more this year, I hope to make better decisions that allow me the freedom that I felt when I first started this all.  I hope to just grow up a little more personally and professionally in a way I want, not a way I think I need to be for everyone else.  Thats my birthday present to myself. Also I'm going to eat a shit ton of sweets today!

21 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday! It must be hard being away from your husband, but I hope you have a wonderful day:)

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    1. He's at work, I get to eat cake.. I think I got the better deal! Thanks for the birthday wishes xo

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  2. Yay for a shit ton of sweets! Happy birthday lady! I just turned 32 (I think we're the same person :)) and it's a weird feeling....like I should feel "older" than I do.
    Anyways, enjoy your day and I am wishing you amazing things in your 32nd year! Hopefully you can make it down to Southern Cali in your travels and we can get together for drinks =).

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    1. A shit ton is high appropriate =) I'm glad we are 1980 birth year twinsies among other things!

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  3. That's my favorite amount of sweets to eat, too!

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    1. ...um its sort of my favorite amount for everything =)

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  4. My husband was born in Victorville almost 36 years ago! :) Happiest of birthday's to you!

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    1. Small world! I still have family there, but rarely visit.. its a very interesting place haha

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  5. Happy Birthday Heather! I love this post...very relatable and inspiring<3 Wishing you all your heart desires! xoxo

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    1. Thanks friend! I dont know where I was going with it all, it just felt right.. and hopefully I wont break promises to myself!

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  6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, great post

    Lauren,
    Fashionswirls.blogspot.com

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    1. Thanks so much for the birthday wishes!

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  7. happy birthday!!! What a great post :) Have a great day!

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  8. I love this so much!!! To pretty and love the colors!!!!

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  9. Happy Birthday! I hope you are able to do all that you want in the next year. May the adventure begin!

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  10. Happy Birthday!!!!

    I hope you have a wonderful year :)

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  11. Happy Birthday! I love your birthday list, looks like you're going to have a great year!

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  12. Happy Birthday! I love the following the dreams part :) I think it's so important to follow what you're passionate about and chase after whatever you love to do.

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  13. What a lovely post. Happy belated birthday.
    http://shannonhearts.blogspot.com/

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  14. Happy belated Birthday! Mine is coming up in a couple of weeks and I am inspired to create my own list of things I want!

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  15. Happy Birthday! Hope this is your best year yet! Xoxo

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